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I’ve been returning back to the presocratic schools and enjoying their metaphysical exploration for the nature of the universe. They resonate with my love of fiction and fantasy, the ubiquitous inclusion of the 4 elements in almost all fantasy involving magic, the themes of love and strife in almost all stories.

Fate and destiny, lofty words that can be used as a reason or as an excuse for events. In stories, it is the hero’s destiny to rise above evil, it is the villain’s fate to perish and fail. What about the rest? Does fate and destiny apply to all equally? Is there a quantum of destiny, can it be measured?

Things are pretty steady along. I’ve been finding myself thinking more about my physical health, and what I want to see in myself. In the past, I had exercise goals of cycle x km or lift x kg. Chasing numbers that in hindsight have very little meaning to me. I remember the few times that I attempted to consistently weight train, I had my training journal, had my sets and reps and kgs all written out. At the end of the week I’d see that 1kg extra I could curl or that 0.5kg extra that I could press. I think one of the reasons I wasn’t making progress is how meaningless a fixation on those numbers was. I wasn’t competing, didn’t have a set goal (apart from always lift more) and I was judging my progress based on numbers and not how I felt. This idea of gain and loss in exercise: gain muscle, lose fat. Gain strength, lose waist size. I am starting to stop thinking about exercise in this way and now focusing on how it makes me feel.